.ji_eUn.

my friends..r

with all the past relationships, i realized that they were always there..
wether in the break ups and all the 'yes' or 'no' portions..


[but blood is thicker than water] ~~ haha, connection please? out of the question!!

i'm still at the point where you last left me..
i'm still waiting with all the hopes you'll come back running for me..

i'm not hurting anymore..

SARANGHAEYO hajiman i need to go!!
[sigh]
i will be living without you..
i lived.. i proved that.. but i still can't leave..

mianhe leejaye sshi..jongmal mianhe..

i shout "GLOBAL WARMING!!!"

**but i wish the world would not end yet.. i'm still young to die..huhu..

this week was a bang!!! woooooooo!!!

i love it!! i got my pay!!! hurray!!!

"HAKUNA MATATA"

means no worries!! haha.. i remember lion king..
these things are just random thoughts..

the swine flu is worrying me.. it's scary!!
hope it will not reach our country [:

PRAY! more PRAYERS!!!
my exam on Lit was brain breaking.. very hard!! whoa!! i hope i'll pass..

AJA! FIGHTING!!!

GOD is good all the time!!

this anxiety is making me confused!
it's like something's ripping inside me..

the failure a while ago was a big downfall.. i really hate myself for being a "pabo" these days.. i can't help feeling this.. all the suggestions, the pros and the cons, the lessons, all the comments are not subsiding in this shell.. waeyo?? waeyo??

WTH.. what's goin' on with my brain??

everything just don't go my way.. then, a while ago, it rained! s**t!!!!

badtrip.. i hate the rain.. i hate it as much how i hate leejaye for leaving me all alone in this damn rainy battle ground..

it's summer? di ba? climate change is a big pain in the ass.. people, stop deteriorating EARTH..

 

it's slowly coming back again.. all the fear, being the ultimate cynic, being passive..

the enthusiasm inside me is slowly abating.. nothing tends to enter every side of my brain.. hay, how can all the optimism just fade away?

 

come back my old-me..pls..come back.. kaji mara!!!!





 

it would be

JAMAICA CHEKAINNAH..harhar..
i really liked this name..

  
 



 


 

BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS... saranghe <3 [:

haha..wala lang..its FRIDAY the 13th and parang nbabaliw aku..
hmm..hay,at least i dont see him nah.. nkatulong din ng malaki ung di namin pagkikita.haha.

well,rami pa gagawin..rami pa kelangan isettle so i should stay on focus and concentrate on the prioritiez..

hayk..3 months na lng..bDAy Q nah again..turning 17 men..haha.. well, this is the worst age,16.. ang rami Qng nasayang..napabayaan..naset-aside..

haha.gagawin Q lahat para di msayang tiwala ni tito loon..hmm, my heart stay still for a while..

medyo mtatagalan pa bgo mkhanapng iba..

haha..i dont wanna rush things ksi most of the time..ngkkamali aku dahil sa kkmadali. bsat HE’LL stay here..hangang sa my dumating bago..ganun un..

well, God.. please give me another chance to correct the mistakes..ayoko ng sayangin tong buhay Q.. npakababaw ng mga rason.. i dont wanna get wasted..

maraming salamat po kasi ang bait nyo pa rin saken..

hayk..AJA! AJA! Fighting!!

..whOw...my grades are not really satisfying.. also, low.. OMG..what's happening to my brain?

it's like worms are eating all my critical thinking..

things are getting more complicated..
i don't wanna fall in love now.. please don't let me fall in another trap again..
.paranoid!!!!!!!!!!!
why can't i still love him even if he makes me see every evidence that he is true?
why can't my heart give him chance?
why can't i force my self to love him?
Gosh, i don't want to hurt him but i'm notstrong enough to tell him the truth.. he had been very good to me and he don't deserve  "paiN".. i'm so STUPID.. tanga!!!!



HELP!!!!!!!
SoS!!!!!!!!
 

it's 12 in the evening and i'm still up..
i'm happy right now because i've known many friends..i've known carl(jae seon kim)..
i'm getting there..
i'll forget him in no longer time..to GOD be the glory..



that is all that matterz.. i'm alive.. i'm forgetting HIM.. i'mliving a new life and he's No one to me now..

dear mySelf,

>it's another year for another search for your personality.. this year had been a topsy-turvy one but at least,you became happy and you learnt from it.. let's start this year with a good thing to have a Good karma all-year round.. you'll miss something from this year but well, that's life.. i love you so much my self.. just forget all about him.. he don't deserve you and i know you'll find someone better than him..be HapPEee always and believe in yourself.. throw those bad attitudes you have and try everything to renew it.......

NEW YEAR's RESOLUTION:

Forget HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>tO loose Weight...............

AJA!!!!!!!

..it's really christmas here in the Philippines..
i smell the scent of the food being prepared.. friends telling "merry christmas".. the smiles, the gifts.. the songs(w/c brings back memories of the past Christmas)..

..me and my friends had an overnight party in Glai's.. it was not really an overnight, haha, it was a pajama party coz almost all of us 'slept'(except edwin..haha).. he put many writings on our faces using pentel pen and ink of ballpen.. such a menace but he was the one making us happy..haha..Janlee really got victimized,his face was like 'swollen tomato'.. julz' nose looked like a 'beaten ass'.. i had fun but I was a little bit sad coz ren and annie was not there.. it was like our overnight last x'mas but a little more matured.. we are getting older every year and am expecting another for next christmas..

it's really Christmas.. I'm missing him again.. i had dreamt of him last monday.. my heart is still holding on to his memories.. it's making me hurt a lot when I remember that 'it's against-the-law to love him'.. but my heart is too involved now.. i'm still hoping he'll remember his promise.. haha..promises... i don't wanna believe on them since the day he left me behind..

"So dear I love him that with him,
All deaths I could endure.
Without him, live no life.
~ William Shakespeare"

"Have you ever noticed that
the worst way to miss someone
is when they are right beside you"
and you can never have them?

..it all started when i went with him in the 'JAM n WORSHIP' concert.. wrong timing coz it was raining that time. i saw him standing by the stairs in our school(maybe waiting for umbrella),so i tapped him. i usually have a habit of 'tapping' people whom i know or close to me.. i shared my umbrella with him then suddenly he put his jacket behind me..that was very touching for me though a little bit corney..haha.. he asked me if i could accompany him to the concert then i said yes(good timing for jamming).

it was 9 in the evening when we left CONVENTION,we decided to go home but it was raining so hard so he took me to his favorite place..'7-11'..we talked about things , i didin't think it would end up to something.. but before that incident, i really prayed to God if he could give me a man that he truly approved of and he knows that passed all my standards. God is really great!!! He gave me him..